When Alone

I am severed in two
From the heart down.
An open wound,
A gaping mouth,
Consuming all the dark.
I can't wear this porcelain much longer,
blood seeps out of the cracks.

Take me.
Reveal me, entrails strewn
about the courtyard.
roll me in glass and jewel
Paint me with Emerald
and Silver.
Bare my back,
and let me kneel for her
just once.

I found solace in her skin,
Warmth in her scent,
Life in her eyes.
Music in her smile.
Emptied, evermore.

Will you return to me?
smile me to my knees,
Let me embrace your legs
as you sift thru my hair
with whispers,
standing proud and resilient.
Oh heroine that I adore,
will you discover me once more?

Transient are these moments
Without your touch.
Fleeting are these endevors.
I'm so, so tired
my sweet memory.

Hear me , Love,
Absolve me.
Carry my remnants
to the water
and expel me.
Function is forever lost.

Precursor

Hey there.

I am nothing but a
Bruised sword sheath
Without you.
When I try to speak,
Broken phrases
From tragic love songs.

Arms extend
Hold my shell above water.
But I still can't breathe,
No, not anymore.

I am stripped of my voice,
And it will be a long long time
Before I can find the words again.

Until then,
I want you to know
That every day
I call out your name
At least five times,
Even if it's only
A whisper.

That the most terrifying minutes
lay in the five to twenty
before I fall asleep.

The depth of your grey eyes
Still consumes me
And won't let me rest
Any longer.

I'll find those words for you my love.
Until then, please,
Take these teardrops.
They're too heavy,
And they're all for you.